Angela Apr 4, 2010
As some of you may be aware, today was a day I've been dreading for the longest. No, not Easter. My birthday: today, I turned thirty. Getting old is never fun, and hitting certain age benchmarks can be psychologically fazing. Now, maybe it's because it was Easter that got me into the spirit, but I did something for my birthday I hadn't done for a good number of years: I celebrated.
It was an amazing day weather-wise, so I took the motorbike down to Atlantic City early this morning. More of an introspective trip than anything else, both the ride and a jog across the Ocean City boardwalk gave me time to think. You see, I had lost someone very dear to me some weeks ago; a patient of mine, a wonderful and brave young girl of thirteen who lost her battle with cancer. Being a health care worker, it's something of an occupational hazard to see folks come and go, but the year-long relationship I formed with her, as both her therapist and friend..... well, it left me heartbroken. In the end, I'd like to think we had each given one another something of immeasurable worth: I, some much needed friendship leading to her final days, and her, a reason for me to finally understand and appreciate the living, and to not be hung up so on something as trivial as an age number. I'm here, and I'm healthy; I often take that fact for granted.
A few hours later I found myself back in New York, where sis and I got together for lunch. I had the lemon chicken with eggplant marsala, a dish I hadn't had in quite some years. It was good, though I think the prolonged anticipation of getting to try it again was nominally more exciting than the dish itself. The peach sorbet was exactly as I remembered it, though: perfection.
It was then that Tiff hit me with the best gift I received today: tickets to the upcoming Lady Gaga Monster Ball Tour at Madison Square Garden this July. To put it simply, I was "Speechless" - I myself had been trying for weeks to secure tickets, with intentions of surprising HER with them. Now, I've just three months to make some concert-appropriate headgear. What think? The gyroscope top or the Ga-Ga-Garrador look?
Afterwards, we decided to spend the rest of the afternoon at The Metropolitan Museum of Art. I always gravitate toward those gorgeous Victorian castle exhibits, but the currently featured Art of Victorian Photocollage exhibit was engaging as well. We ended the afternoon with a "cheers-to-thirty" drink -- a Jägerbomb for her, and a passion fruit vodka for myself. Then we stopped in at mom's, where she greeted her two slightly tipsy daughters with a Costco-bought sweet potato pie. We ate the entire thing (they actually do make a pretty damned good pie) whilst reminiscing and playing catch-up.
And now I'm home, with a cup of decaf by my side, tired as hell, and ready to zonk out at a moment's notice. And it's only 10pm. Busy day.... or maybe I really am just getting old. But I'm proud to say I made it to the big 3-0, and survived it. I can now look ahead without trepidations or regret. At least until forty starts rolling around.
A shout-out of thanks to all those who got me here. And to you guys, too, who helped to ease some well-founded understanding of my "issue" in this related thread.
Happy Easter, all. Hope yours turned out as well as mine. This day has certainly been a rebirth of sorts for me.